Text from last night. ♥

listen to this while reading ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gujDtk2kPQ

I really think a lot of you. I am missing you. Every second.
And I know you feel the same but I cannot stop myself from thinking about something negative. Can't do.
You do not know it but I missed so much... just for being with you. Is that right?

I think it was it worth. It still is. Since last night.

I am happy - for the moment. <3
I love you!

Memories!

It is not the broken heart that hurts. It is the memory of you and me. The memory of us. The way we were. Sometimes it is missing.
Most of the time it hurt. So I am better of without you.
And I do not need you to be happy. I never was.
Goodbye my lover ;) See you never again!

Junkie!

I'm obsessed. Obsessed with many things.
#1 You ... that could be the only thing though it is not.
When I am sad because you are not there I have to distract myself - go for a run.
I am a junkie and you are my drug.
You are like a pill. Keep making me better. Keep making me ill. ♥ - Pink

xoxo

Lovesick

She'd already been here. Here in the middle of nowhere. She knows this place very well.
She remembers the past and look behind... nothing...
She thinks about her situation and look beside her... nothing...
She imagines the future and look in front of her... nothing...
Beginning to cry she slowly sits down on the ground. Everything is hurting.
Her feet because of running way to much.
Her legs because of the coldness and her shorts.
Her eyes because of crying.
Her head because of thinking way to much.
Her heart because of loving.
She knew it. She really did. But she was blinded. Or just did not except the truth.

I guess there could have been a "we" but there never was, there is not and there never be again. It is not my fault. Maybe it is not yours either.
I read my blog yesterday. I knew it. I was right. Why does it hurt so bad?! ...
Real love does not exist. Love kills slowly.

- xoxo

Bullet through my brain

I should hate you. I really have reasons to hate you.
But I cannot! I am not able to. Instead I hate myself. I kick myself. I kick myself in my ass. I am going running way too much because of having no training. I run until I cannot feel anything but the numb. I ran until I am barely falling.
I am running.
Running until the pain is fade away.
Cannot see the way in front of me. But it has to be better than the past.
Left or right? Shadow or light? Black or white? Cannot decide.
Gotta run. Run until I throw up. Run until my feed are bleeding.
Run...
in your arms.

Too Cool - Too Cool for You

Back and forth.
Left to right.
Up and down.
Hot and cold.

But baby guess what I will not do this anymore ;) Get your things and just go. Cause I am too cool - I am too cool to know you! ;)
You had enough time more than enough. Too many chances... It cannot go on like this.
I am too cool for you!
Still, I am in love with you - it will not last forever.

Catch up my dreams again gotta rock them!
Looooooove you, xoxo Roxy

You & I

I want to be near you,
You are pushing me away.

I want to be there for you,
You turn around and go.

I am carrying you on my hands,
You jab a knife into my heart.

I am falling,
You are sleeping.

I am crying on the floor,
You are looking in the other direction.

I am looking forward,
You are stock in the past.

I cannot go any further,
You do not even notice.

I do not want anymore,
You just give up without trying.


Happy New Year - hopefully a better year.
Keep rocking your dreams.
- xoxo Roxy