Brokenhearted

I had to let go. She's a big girl now. But it's hard to let my baby go. Who'll  take care of her?! She has to learn it to care for herself. I know she'll do  fine.  But me, no... it will be hard... it is already. 2 hours ago.  Something big is missing.  It feels like my heart is split in parts. One part for each good friend. A very  big part is missing.  Writing with tears in my eyes, I remember her last words:  
"You know I love you. It's not like I'm not coming back!"
 Also she left me her heart :) funny thing, she really did! Her heart-pillow.  Totally in love with it.  I have to hide my tears behind it because I'm on the way back to Brunswick and  her mom sits besides me.  And yes I know that it's "only" a year but I'm afraid.  I've just seen pictures those were one year ago. We've changed so much. But  we've changed eachother... together.  And now she'll change in italy and I in germany. What will change between us? 

"I'm missing you so much 
Can't help it, I'm in love 
A day without you is like a year without rain 
I need you by my side 
Don't know how I'll survive 
A day without you is like a year without rain" (...)
Selena Gomez - A year without rain

But the fact that I love you makes me smile and cry at one time. Because this is the only thing what counts. 

Baby, I love you.   I've to stop writing (& thinking) it makes me crying^^ Guess there's no make up  left.^^  I'll try to rock and dream on a year without you.  -xoxo Roxy